Worried

It has been awhile since I have written. So much has happened. We now have filed for divorce and he's dating and I'm seeing a guy. A guy that I'm falling for too fast probably. He's beautiful and so I keep having worries about why he's with me. He tells me sweet stuff all the time and he's affectionate and I love that. I have this fear he's going to leave me or hurt me and I shouldn't let my guard down. I've been with him at the hospital a lot because he got hurt really bad. He's home now and I've been trying to be there for him. I think this is making our relationship stronger-him knowing I've been there. I just found out something the other day that has me really worried. I find out Tuesday the answer and I'm so worried about what the answer will be. I put myself in this crazy position-my life that I'm in now. I guess I will figure it out and it'll be ok-hard but ok. I probably won't get any sleep Monday and much tonight. But then again...sleep and I haven't been the best of friends for quite some time.